selfish asshole ~!~

so, the conversations of last night
or moreso my ramblings
and racing thoughts
have led me to uncover many truths about myself
and those around me

i have learned
or moreso realized
that everything i dislike
and am annoyed with in others, and the world
i turn upon myself
and into the hating, and anger i have towards me
instead of reacting upon what i despise in the outside world

i have also come to the conclusion
that some of those close to me
and those that used to be
are in fact selfish assholes

people that pretend to be interested in your life
pretend to care
pretend to be loyal and honest
when really they are merely out for themselves
but know exactly what to say in order to keep appearance to others
while simultaneously destroying and injuring others
without a care in the world
whether they use you for sex
for entertainment
or simply to be there for their problems
they will never behave in the same manner you will towards them

they may go fuck themselves
you are not great enough to think only of yourself