a facade ~!~

i find it difficult to believe what others feel towards me

no matter how many times someone tells me they care

they love me

i'm beautiful

etcetcetc

i can't bring myself to truly believe them

if i don't care for myself

i don't love myself

i see myself as hideous

how can anyone else see differently?

sometimes i think i'd be better off with everyone else gone

but i thrive off of people

i don't hate others

i hate myself

put me alone in a room

and i begin my spiral down

suffocated by own negative energy