i want a man like this.
i love feminine men
beautiful hair
flawless complexion
perfect fashion sense
thin bodies
lean muscle
emotional
dramatic
decent makeup-usage

i want a man like this
some others may see him as less than a man
i don't
i wouldn't want my man any other way


can we add artist
poet
artist
dancer
singer
choreographer
actor
writer
editor


to my list
i want a man in the creative field
regardless of what it is


actually i'd love a man that speaks multiple languages
a multi cultural man
with a desire to travel
and experience different cultures
that is that is the perfect man for me



does he exist?

sleep the day away

my first day of four off at work
i spend it sleeping until 12
lounge around the house
stuff my face
and am just leaving the house now to pick up my paycheck

i hate having cramps
on rainy, thunderstorm ridden days
it means i don't leave the house
i spend all day sleeping

at least tomorrow will be better
no rain
beach time
show at night

insert metal

last december i got my first nose piercing
a month later i got my second
after that i wanted more
i wanted more bits of metal stabbed through my skin
i couldn't determine where
a couple of places come to mind
belly button
lip
collar bone
hip bone
ear

maybe i'll get them all
one at a time, however
i have a hard enough time cleaning one piercing
my lifestyle leaves me passing out in the early hours of the morning, still attired in the dress of the previous day
or i find myself sharing my bed, unclothed, clearly not taking my before bed piercing cleaning into consideration

i am shocked my nose piercings didn't become infected
or at the very least irritated

maybe i do have some good luck after all

catch some zzz

after a trying day at work all i could manage to do when returning home was collapse on to my couch
i haven't napped in quite some time
even a week ago, working my 7 to 3 shift, i never once slept during the day
sleeping during the day comes easier to me than sleep at night
once the clock strikes midnight i'm awarded with an extra boost of energy
even when i am exhausted
and lie in bed at 10 o clock
my body refuses to shut down
i'll be curled up in bed
eyes closed
mind racing
for hours at a time
falling asleep four to five hours after i had anticipated
waking up every half or so
until i must roll out of bed and resume my work schedule

the only time i'm able to effectively sleep is after a night spent with my dear friend, merlot
a couple of glasses of that
some oxy
and i'll be out within an hour

excellent sleep too

slave from eight to four

work
work
work
work
8 to 4
monday
to
friday

work. nap. eat. pass out. work. repeat.

too tired to do anything else

sleep away the free time

don't trust the hoe

some people may consider some of my actions promiscuous. i don't consider myself a whore or slut, i simply enjoy sexual contact with other individuals without a close emotional connection needed. sex feels good, even simply making out is enjoyable.
i may hook up with men i haven't known for a long period of time, men i am not even emotionally interested in, but that doesn't make me any less of a woman. it doesn't mean i'm a whore. doesn't make me a bad or horrible person.
i simply think of hooking up as an activity i enjoy engaging in. whether it be with a significant other, a stranger or a close friend.
i look forward to the start of the school year when i'll be able to find new people to have some fun with. maybe find a good man that satisfies both my emotional and sexual needs. until then, i'll sample the men that i do run across, and see what happens from there.

reality

a crutch for those who can't cope with drugs.

drugs bring you to a whole new plane
a place you cannot achieve on your own
another universe
some let you see deeper inside your own inner realm
others allow for an escape

either way, drugs are not necessarily an evil
it all depends on you
and how you deal with them

don't give me that "i can have fun without booze and drugs" bull shit
because i can too
but sometimes i prefer to have fun with them