one of those nights ~!~

it's one of those nights
where i'm kept awake
by thoughts of the future

what happens after college
will i be stuck with my parents
having never succeeded in getting my own place
slaving away at marshalls until i find some other mediocre job
then maybe, possibly, heading to grad school
part time of course
in the years to follow
paying off those fuckin student loans
slowly
slowly

will i even find a job for the coming semester
make enough money to support my habits
enough to save away
for argentina
for an apartment
or will i be jobless
bumming money, drugs, booze left and right
stuck home again for the summer
for the coming year
leaving everyone in NY behind once i graduate


or maybe i will find that job
save up the money
split a place with a friend
remain there after school's all said and done
find some grad school
add to the student debt
finish
and then worry about how to pay all that shit off
the debt
the apartment
the bills
but not give a fuck because i'm free

yeah, i hope that what happens