one person ~!~

you know when you write those blogs
dedicated to one person

not ever one
multiple entries
weekly
daily

and you realize they never read them?
have no idea what you're thinking
the way your mind is working

how distressed
upset
you actually are

wish you had the guts
the nerve
to tell them what's really going on

and they don't respond
they never do

or when they do
they misinterpret the situation
play it off as something unimportant?
make a joke out of it


a cry for help
and they don't even catch on


my entire summer
but what does it matter?
they haven't caught on yet
they never will
never
will


play it off as a fucking joke
as a light hearted haha
i'm just messing with you


well i'm not
i never was
i opened up
so play it off as one of those
you're taking things to seriously times
and don't listen to what i have to say


i just want someone to talk to
and i can't