problem ~!~

i have a problem
i have a serious problem

okay
not really
not life threatening

though everyone may believe it to be such

this habit of mine
in which i'm able to go through with everytime i'm alone

it will leave me with scars
and memories of these nights
but never anything that will actually maim me in a serious manner


i need to stop
but i don't now how


and when anyone else notices it becomes a huge deal
and yet it is not

not at all

people exhibit this behavior in a variety of ways
and yet mine is one of the most frowned upon
the most "there is something wrong with you"

but that is incorrect
there may be things wrong with me
but no worse than anyone else out there


so fuck you if you wish you wish to judge the ways in which i deal with my issues

i'm doing what i understand
and work with best