therapy ~!~

dbt therapy
three times a week
three hours a day
at 9 am

and it's a ton of bullshit

i can't relate to these people at all
i don't feel the way they do

can't work themselves to get out of bed in the morning
a prolonged, everlasting feeling of sadness
of nothing
of anger
etc

i rarely feel depressed
anger and hatred are my vices
and they come and go
just like that

no warning
just here, and gone


and then back to normal


and these skills they give us
to cope with life
i know them all
practice them all without realizing it
every single fuckin day

and i've been able to heal myself
and work through my own problems


these people treat me like a child
like i can't recognize the way i feel
that any time i go out, and enjoy a drink
or a smoke, i'm using it as a means to numb my feelings

fuck this bullshit