i miss those days~!~

i miss those nights turned into mornings
stretching the night out until the sun rose

having people around that couldn't sleep as much as i couldn't

having someone to talk to during the moments where i need to the most
the moments i need to be distracted most

what happened to me?
i'm never out late anymore
always up late
but never out late

and up late, alone
stuck inside, but no one to talk to

driving myself insane
sleepless

sometimes ~!~

sometimes i don't want to be the initiator
the one calling all the steps
guiding the entire process

sometimes i want to be taken by surprise
be the one not in control

sometimes rough
sometime for hours
not always in out and go

sometimes i wish