no food, no sleep

since i've returned to the brook

i have no slept

and i've eaten twice

if i keep this up i won't survive

but i want to keep this up

i waste so much of my life sleeping

in these sleepless nights i have met many new faces

engaged in deep conversations with those close to me

and had an amazing time

and eating is overrated too

i have no desired food in days

and my body does not demand it

why waste the money on it

why risk the chance of gaining weight

i do not need to sleep

i do not need to eat

i want to experience all i can in this lifetime

and don't want this to hold me back

g'morning

it feels nice being up before noon

i don't feel like such a bum

and i can actually get things accomplished today

sure, i felt groggy right after my alarm went off

but that feeling quickly went away the second i started moving around

i'm very adaptable to different time schedules

so if i must, i could very easily be a morning person

just as it's very easy for me to shift gears into a night owl

i realized today that i am a very adaptable person

when i'm put into a new situation i can easily make it feel like the same old

when i come home for winter break within my first day back i'm already used to being home

and when i return to school i feel like i never left

maybe this is why i enjoy change so much

because even my new experiences become the same old to me very soon

and the same old gets rather tiring after awhile

thoughts of the future

thinking about the future keeps me up at night

i'm all prepared to fall asleep

exhausted

stretched out

comfortable

warm

and once my head hits the pillow thoughts just flood my mind

and i'm wide awake again

this time around these thoughts pertained to next semester

and wondering how things will be different

whether or not i'll still be close to the same people

if the people i was into last year will still be interested

etcetcetc

it's driving me crazy

work that pole

i am going to learn how to do that

that takes skills

and a strong body

and it's sexy

i must learn the ways of the pole dancer

the summer music festivals begin

i want to go to coachella this year

but there's a very slim chance i'll be able to attend

tickets are around 300$s

a plane ticket to california will cost me anywhere between 400 and 600$

and then an extra 200$ for hotel and food

right now i have less than twenty dollars to my name

this whole saving money thing isn't my strong point

i always end up spending money to support my bad habits

to make small trips here and there

and then i have none left when i actually have something worth going to

http://www.coachella.com/event/lineup

^line-up is amazing

sausage fest

i always seem to be the only girl that lasts

'til the end of the night at every party i go to.

it's me and then a group of five or more guys

no matter where i am

at home, at stony brook

it's weird

i spent the night at uconn yesterday

and lasted until seven in the morning

ended up out drinking every guy there

i felt like a champ

kind of envious of the apartments in uconn

so much better than stony brook's

it's a legit apartment

and not just an extended version of suite style living

the drive back this morning was nice too

it's always refreshing seeing the country side every now and then

lakes, mountains and trees galour

it's been months

i'm horrible at updating my blogs

i'll go months without ever updating

i'm going to start up again

for a little while at least

it'll give me something to do with these last eight days here in connecticut

soon i'll be back at school

where i'll be back on the path of adventure

experimentation

fun

there's so much more i need to experience this year

so many things left to try

and i can't wait to get started on it all